Bad Friend

I ran into my friend Angela at the Sweetwater trailhead last week, or maybe the week before. I loose track of time easily. Anyway, we were discussing how we should have met up there to do the same sport. She was mountain biking and I was trail running. We also discussed how we don't get out with our friends enough. I told her that I had to turn down three really cool climbing trips in as many weekends. One to Jack's Canyon in NE Arizona, one to Red Rocks near Las Vegas, and the one I most wanted to go on to "J" Tree (Joshua Tree National Park) in California. I was telling her that I felt really bad to always be declining invitations, but that there was always something else that I needed to be doing. I was mid sentence saying that I feel like I am just being a.......when she said "bad friend". Exactly. Someone else understands. I was thinking about it today while I was running, and planning how to write this post. I realized that I spend entirely to much time with people I have no real affinity for. Either out of sense of duty, or circumstances. Not that I dislike most of these people, but I don't have those certain feelings that would make them a friend. I've decided to fix this, but I'm not sure how just yet.